I hope you are doing well! I have had about a week of break already. I have slept a lot, but I have also started to get things organized here. I have put everything back that I need to in my room. I still need to clean a little more. I am starting to get ready for the next year. I have not heard from everyone I need to hear from, but I am starting to slowly get there. I think I always say I am slowly getting my life together, but maybe it is just life. It always should be a goal to be a better you the next day instead of thinking you will reach the best, and then you have achieved life. Life can be so unpredictable. I always try to think I see the end goal, but really I should just see the big picture.
I have just started to do things like work out. Today was the first time I strength-trained in a long time. I just did it. It is not a big way of starting a whole new year of me or anything fancy. I just started. I think before I used to always wait at the beginning of a month or year to get my life going. I always would then put myself in a rut. I always see my friends having jobs or opportunities that I felt bad I was not putting in my effort. I am given such a good life. My family has worked so hard just to give me the opportunity to do great things. I used to feel angry that I was forced to do all these educational things, but that is the best way to give me the best life. My family always wants what is best for me.
I got to see my family the past week. It was so great to see them. I got to be with both my parents, sister, and grandparents. We all have our problems, but we all still love each other. I know for myself that I did not do the best I could do for my future in high school. My sister did. She did not falter under the pressure. I created all this pressure for myself that I overwhelmed myself. I am always either solely dedicated to school, or I completely gave up. That is not like my sister. She is always focused. She is going to do great things. My family is starting to talk about college. I have already gone through it. I had a 4.0 in high school due to my grades freshmen year and sophomore year, which I thought was a complete suprise.The same could not be said when I was applying to college. Junior year and Senior year I got failing grades. I honestly did not even have the minimum to get into a prestigious college with those grades. My sister has a good chance. I really just wish she gets to go to a place where she loves. She gets the school she loves because that is what she deserves. I am here after my freshmen year of college in the summer not set on what I am going to do. I am going to start work with my mom on her business. I admire her for creating her own business and working even after-hours. I am going to work with her. I am also going to keep on working out. I need to realize that my path is not the same as my friends. Of course it is not. I always admire how we can never ever be the same as someone else and no one can be like us. Even within the span of one day we are on a different path than every single person in the entire world. We are thinking somethig different, wearing something different, and doing something different. With that, so much can get done. What I need to do is spend time with the people I love, and with that I can learn more about myself. I work best when I am me.
I will write soon. I am here at home. I got time haha. Thank you, and I hope you have a great day! 🙂