“Mahal Kita” – I Love you in Tagalog
Hello everyone! I hope you are all having a good weekend, and I hope a good Valentine’s Day! I personally do not have a Valentine in the conventional sense, but I am honestly okay with it. I know people talk about how Valentine’s Day is a way for companies to make money, but I have nothing wrong with Valentine’s Day. It is a day to spread love, and the world always can use some of it. I think good things come out of Valentine’s Day. It is a way for people to reaffirm their love for each other. Everyone needs a little pick-me-up.
I love seeing love, and I love seeing it in all senses. I love seeing couples, and I guess I am one of those people who does not get jealous of people. Just because someone is in a relationship does not mean their love has to be such a implication of me being single. They are not affecting me personally, so I just become happy for them even if I see them for a few seconds. I especially love seeing things that would maybe not be significant, but more of an intimate moment that would not be seen.
I was at church last week. I saw an old Asian lady by herself. Near the end of the service I saw a little girl running towards her. The old lady instantly lit up. The little girl sat next to her. I sat behind them, but I could see the instant connection between the two. The little girl was just sitting there, but it meant so much for the old lady. She was smiling from ear to ear. The little girl was unaware of it, but she made her grandma’s day. Just being there for someone can make the biggest of difference. I was with my friend, and we both realized later that we both looked at the moment. It was not the most significant moment, but it was a special moment. I felt so warm inside, and I almost started tearing up.
It reminded me of my grandparents and me. I pictured myself as the little girl, and I imagined my Lola as the lady. My grandparents always would talk about memories when my sister and I were younger. I sometimes thought maybe they just like telling these stories, maybe they forgot they told us these stories, and maybe sometimes they liked us more when we were young. Now that I am grown up it is not the same. I thought before that I could never go back to those times, and somehow I would disappoint them. My sister and I used to see them every weekend. They were such a big part of our lives. I also remember the first time my sister and I grew up, and we said we did not want to see them every week again. I was so lucky because usually people see their grandparents once every few months. My grandparents would drive 50 minutes to see us every weekend. It was not because we did not want to see them per se, but we were growing up. We just wanted the weekends to ourselves. That must have broken their hearts. I can only imagine how many times we made their day as that little girl did for the old lady. It is such a genuine and loving moment that I never realized was happening. I think everyone wants their significant other to look at them as if they are the best thing for them. I should have the same for my family.
Other than my sister and parents, my grandparents are the only direct family we have here close to us. I do not have any first cousins here, and all my other aunts and uncles are very far away. Most of the holidays would be us six. They were the only family I knew. I feel so bad for doing that. They have done so much for me, and I never appreciated it.
I talk about how I must have made their day, but I did not realize until recently that they have made my whole life the best it could be.
If it were not for their sacrificing love I would not be the person I am today. They have given me so much. I know I cannot give them the unidivided attention and just pure self like I did when I was younger, but I want to make them proud. I want them to know that their love and hard work will be worth it. They gave the best love; unconditional love. My Lola has always just wanted what is best for me. She does not want me to hurt or be sad. She only wants me to have happiness. That is the greatest gift someone can give me. I do not show it enough, but I am so grateful for my family. I have recently invested my time in friends and other things that I have neglected my family. I think this blog has really helped me in doing better.
I think overall even a day as corny as Valentine’s Day is really important. You love the people you do everyday, and sometimes we forget to just say “I Love You” on a regular basis. Life gets in the way. If we need a day like Valentine’s Day to do that, then so be it. I think it is a goal of mine to show directly that I care about people. I think I care so much, but I need to show it. It is all in the little things. You never know when you can make someone so happy.
Half of doing life is to just show up. Just being there for someone can speak the highest volumes. I am not a Valentine’s Day hater at all. I am going to do productive things today, and I am going to live it. That is the kind of love that you do not see. We need more of that.
“Darling don’t forget to fall in love with yourself first”
I hope you have a really good day! I also thank you for reading this blog. I greatly appreciate it!